Dye the Wind Blue

Sometimes I lack nuance in the words and thoughts I have 
Subtlety is not always required
I want the cause to be plain and clear for you
This is why I want to dye the wind blue

I want to wear my heart on my sleeve 
Dripping out, my inner self exposed to every emotional disease
Can't confuse what I'm currently feeling with the lack of linear healing
Everything matters! The basement of these once concealed patterns is now the ceiling

I'd turn myself inside out
Nothing held back within, I'd fucking shout
I know what the defense mechanism is all about
Come hither now as the seeds of effort begin to sprout 

There were moments along the way I was almost ready 
There were other times where my steps seemed unsteady 
I let the best parts of me stay buried inside
And because of that, you thought the problem was you

I don't have to write in riddles nor speak in mumbled, cryptic tongue 
Being misunderstood isn't really much fun
I'd rip out my soul, paint over these messy parts and be different and know that I did some of it for you but really, it was mostly for me too!

I am tired of the carousel spinning and I am tired of the pain leaking through
Oh how I wish that I could dye the wind blue

Author's Note:

If it pleases you, check out my other color inspired pieces!

https://binwax.substack.com/p/my-happiness-is-orange?r=2p6e8n

https://binwax.substack.com/p/my-anger-is-blue?r=2p6e8n